Mahabharata
Ambā-upākhyāna (193) (Udyoga-parva: The Tale of Ambā and the Origin of Śikhaṇḍin, Chapters 173–197)5.193.61-65
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Mahabharata · 5.193.61-65
Devanāgarī

नाहम् एनं धनुष्पाणिं युयुत्सुं समुपस्थितम् ॥
मुहूर्तम् अपि पश्येयं प्रहरेयं न चाप्य् उत ॥
व्रतम् एतन् मम सदा पृथिव्याम् अपि विश्रुतम् ॥
स्त्रियां स्त्रीपूर्वके चापि स्त्रीनाम्नि स्त्रीस्वरूपिणि ॥
न मुञ्चेयम् अहं बाणान् इति कौरवनन्दन ॥
न हन्याम् अहम् एतेन कारणेन शिखण्डिनम् ॥
एतत् तत्त्वम् अहं वेद जन्म तात शिखण्डिनः ॥
ततो नैनं हनिष्यामि समरेष्व् आततायिनम् ॥
यदि भीष्मः स्त्रियं हन्याद् धन्याद् आत्मानम् अप्य् उत ॥
नैनं तस्माद् धनिष्यामि दृष्ट्वापि समरे स्थितम् ॥

Transliteration (IAST)

nāham enaṃ dhanuṣpāṇiṃ yuyutsuṃ samupasthitam ||
muhūrtam api paśyeyaṃ prahareyaṃ na cāpy uta ||
vratam etan mama sadā pṛthivyām api viśrutam ||
striyāṃ strīpūrvake cāpi strīnāmni strīsvarūpiṇi ||
na muñceyam ahaṃ bāṇān iti kauravanandana ||
na hanyām aham etena kāraṇena śikhaṇḍinam ||
etat tattvam ahaṃ veda janma tāta śikhaṇḍinaḥ ||
tato nainaṃ haniṣyāmi samareṣv ātatāyinam ||
yadi bhīṣmaḥ striyaṃ hanyād dhanyād ātmānam apy uta ||
nainaṃ tasmād dhaniṣyāmi dṛṣṭvāpi samare sthitam ||

Word-by-word
SanskritIASTMeaning
नाहम्nāhamI not; not I
एनंenaṃhim; this one
धनुष्पाणिंdhanuṣpāṇiṃbow in hand; holding a bow
युयुत्सुंyuyutsuṃeager to fight; seeking battle
समुपस्थितम्samupasthitamstanding before me; having come near
मुहूर्तम्muhūrtama moment; a brief time
अपिapieven; perhaps
पश्येयंpaśyeyaṃI could look; I would glance
प्रहरेयंprahareyaṃI would strike; I would deal a blow
nanot; no
चाप्य्cāpyand also; moreover
उतutaindeed; even
व्रतम्vratama vow; an oath
एतन्etanthis; this given
ममmamamy; of mine
सदाsadāalways; constantly
पृथिव्याम्pṛthivyāmon the earth; in the world
अपिapieven; indeed
विश्रुतम्viśrutamrenowned; celebrated
स्त्रियांstriyāṃat a woman; against a woman
स्त्रीपूर्वकेstrīpūrvakeat one formerly a woman; at one with a woman's past
चापिcāpiand also; and even
स्त्रीनाम्निstrīnāmniat one bearing a woman's name; at one with a woman's name
स्त्रीस्वरूपिणिstrīsvarūpiṇiat one having a woman's form; at one in a woman's shape
nanot; no
मुञ्चेयम्muñceyamI would loose; I would release
अहंahaṃI; I myself
बाणान्bāṇānarrows; war-arrows
इतिitithus; with these words
कौरवनन्दनkauravanandanaO joy of the Kurus; descendant of Kuru
nanot; no
हन्याम्hanyāmI could kill; I would slay
अहम्ahamI; I myself
एतेनetenafor this; on this
कारणेनkāraṇenareason; cause
शिखण्डिनम्śikhaṇḍinamShikhandin; Drupada's son
एतत्etatthis; this thing
तत्त्वम्tattvamthe truth; the true state of affairs
अहंahaṃI; I myself
वेदvedaknow; understand
जन्मjanmabirth; origin
तातtātadear one; my son
शिखण्डिनःśikhaṇḍinaḥof Shikhandin; belonging to Shikhandin
ततोtatothen; after that
नैनंnainaṃnot him; not this one
हनिष्यामिhaniṣyāmiI will kill; I will slay
समरेष्व्samareṣvin battles; in combats
आततायिनम्ātatāyinamthe attacker; the aggressor
यदिyadiif; when
भीष्मःbhīṣmaḥBhishma; grandsire Bhishma
स्त्रियंstriyaṃa woman; as a woman
हन्याद्hanyādwere to kill; were to strike
धन्याद्dhanyādwould destroy; would ruin
आत्मानम्ātmānamhimself; his own self
अप्य्apyalso; even
उतutaindeed; even
नैनंnainaṃnot him; not this one
तस्माद्tasmādtherefore; for that reason
धनिष्यामिdhaniṣyāmiI will kill; I will strike
दृष्ट्वापिdṛṣṭvāpieven seeing; even having seen
समरेsamarein battle; in combat
स्थितम्sthitamstanding; positioned
Translation

I could not so much as look at him for a moment, standing before me bow in hand and eager for battle, without striking him. Such is my vow, ever known throughout the earth, O joy of the Kauravas: I do not loose arrows at a woman, at one who was formerly a woman, at one bearing a woman's name, or at one having a woman's form. For this reason I shall not slay Shikhandin. I know the truth about Shikhandin's birth, O dear one; therefore I shall not kill him in battle, even should he attack. If Bhishma were to slay a woman, he would destroy himself as well; therefore I shall not slay him, even seeing him standing in battle.

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